6/1/99  Case Study

"Everything is meant to be" 
a wise one once said to me.
Here i am... still full of smoke
having so much to say.

It's almost like a case study, i say.
Learning the nature
the different behaviors.

I am god...i walk amongst sinners
(and priests and poets and saints.)
It's two sides of the same coin.
I ask myself, "What is this attraction to the dark side?"
My answer comes in waves.

As i do this study, i learn the perceptions...
the delusions and perversions...
and maybe how to treat that.
I can only leave it when i'm ready.

You are so beautiful to me.
I love the way - I love all your ways.
Even the way you lay when you are fast asleep.
Deep, deep.
I am with you.
Do you feel me now?
You are sleeping.
I am the moonlight sneaking through the window.
I can see you, my love.
I am caressing you
and the kitty cats, too.