Saturnalia   12.21.02

I watch the months & the years
I wade through memories and tears
Still, i find you
lodged in the crevasses of my heart

the hole which was the whole

I can't get past the ache
somehow
it flames within my chest
i don't know how to stop it now
I don't know if i know what's best.

but it's the Solstice
it's my turn to make
a thing
from no thing

that long dark night
that tops them all
will summon in the light.

By thomasina kundalini